La fabuleuse vie de Xinkef

昏黃的路燈下 雪洶湧澎湃的紛紛揚揚

鋪在路上厚厚的那麼一層 就讓人不由想到曾經的老北京

鐵皮公共汽車跑在路上 還有黃面的

想到老爸騎車帶我在大梁上 拿大衣包裹著我 我要看 於是拉出細細的一條縫 容我把腦袋探出來

想到我跟我媽回遙遠的姥姥家 到了大門還要走上好幾十分鐘才進家

想到我爸和我的井蓋遊戲 想到我和媽第一次上“無人售票”

想到小時候下雪出去堆雪人 想到我爸教我在雪上畫鳥的腳印 狗的腳印

想到雨天的小房子 想到床邊的收音機 想到say you say me 想到那張about a girl 想到大堆的周華健 還有忘不了的小天堂

想到姥爺帶我去書店買作文選 還有我想要的一切 姥姥的拼命阻止 還有奶奶的午餐

想到一幫人翹晚自習 買麥當勞 坐在操場上 號稱多少年之後還要回來重聚 到底是多少年來著

想到第一次不回家的謊話

想到晚會上他們的表演 我們的表演

想到畢業的那個夏天

隔著玻璃看雪花的墜落 隆隆的happy or heavy metal

更顯窗外動態的寂靜無聲 高中的那一年

laugh at you do cheer me up, jerk!

if i don't even have faith in me, who ever will

nice to see you smile like he does

whether it is about the snow, the rock, 還是那一去不復返的青春

寫在安詳 寧靜 溫暖的第二年

紊亂 刺激 紊亂

莫名其妙地衝上划下

推翻 肯定 再推翻

認為應該激動在意的 叫不出來

認為應該無關忽略的 耿耿於懷

聽到甚麼 就竪起耳朵

得到甚麼 就置之不理

想到甚麼 就無法無天

看到甚麼 就淚流滿面

簡簡單單一行字

簡簡單單一個詞

簡簡單單一件事

簡簡單單一個人

順利地進入 還是 猛烈地退出

Maybe when I am not trying to figure out, I will know how

十年 轉瞬即逝

十年前 我曾走在那

正義路 xx的家

今天換作我媽華麗的輪廓 一閃而過

有時候看重了自己 十年在這一生中又算的了甚麼

但誰知道這又會不會成為人生中的最後一天

“我想要殺死自己 而不要看著自己老去”

有的人嚮往焰火般壯麗卻短暫的一生

有時候看輕了自己 應該完全拋開討乞擺尾的姿態

隨心所欲的人是最勇敢的 只是這是個缺少英雄勇士的年代

災難面前見人心 可往往人們都已屁滾尿流

佛淡定面對滄桑百世 無慾無求？

禁慾 is the process to or should it be the other way around

出逃 出逃 出逃

Finally it's our happy getaway now

Some one stood up and fight, some one has to cry, and some one chose to die.

Caught-in-the-middle situation is getting more serious, sometimes I rather not have this ability to understand.

All the words go through me and become something else, but could it solve, could it save?

I am just the tool for your dirty business, but am I innocent.

I am just the tool to achieve your own goal, but am I getting something out of this.

I can't tell who is lying, either right or wrong.

You all have excuses for your own sayings, but I am tired of listening.

I will count the day until this is finished, hope I will be done with it, and hope I will be done with you.

And anybody just stop bullshitting with me again, I don't have sympathy for liars.

The End

兩位絕對算作姊妹的好事 一個即將為人母 一個將要為人妻

除了恭喜 恭喜 還是恭喜

生活中的很多轉折點

轉換了許多地方

但似乎一直無法隨便就安穩下來

不敢隨便闖蕩

其實只是too afraid too lose

迎來送去了許多

玩耍 花錢 酒

工作 很難 在適應

掙錢 很難 在努力

面對一個600多塊的包一直一直的猶豫不決

下決心打車似乎真的要比奢侈品更貼近人心

十個月之後再見老王

不再對手上的票心安理得

盡情的放聲大唱大笑大叫

我心中還是有庸俗的快樂

對面帶不屑的人肉三腳架

心存感激

Eight months have been past

Well, that was quick

But think back, not quite

Is that a punishment for being too lazy over the year?

Cursed weekend, and now the weekdays too.

Happy Valley

--It's been three years, and memory does kill.

Hot air balloon which is not so hot, but never mind, I have got a big hot heart for it.

Laugh, I don't care being stared. I am not, and never was a lady anyway.

Spin and spin, spinning all around.

With the lighting, feels like flying.

Dizzy Crazy Frenzy

Life is too short to be miserable. I know it doesn't seem like it, but I have been wasting too much time kissing the wrong asses. And neglecting too many of you. Live it for yourself for once, do things for you. Feeling hot? Then strip! Feeling scared? Then shout! Sometime, it is all about the fuck off attitude.

Tanned feet, four hours in line, the big ahhh. Does the 4:30 deadline spice things up a little?

X

--Should be once in a computer's life time.

But three for mine, at least for now.

Do you know it's silver? Silver looks better than white! More delicate.

I think I am excited, because you have made me.

The whole process of not be able to get there.

Losing that photo, saying goodbye to a bad mood.

Is it fate, or changing your destiny? But if it is destiny, can we rewrite it? Should it means meant to be? Déjà vu, I love it. Some say dream is pieces of memory from your ancestors. And she dreamt about being a 神仙.

What if 2011 really is the end of the world? Should we make different decisions in life? But what if it is not? Will you regret it?

Normal vs. Abnormal, Take it or Leave it!

你一句 回家了 Does it make my heart beats or settles in...

After his death, I am suddenly overwhelmed by his work. He is the King of Pop, and there is someone surely belongs to the stage.

I don't know him, not at all. I am not familiar with his moves, nor his tone. The only song that I can sing along is HEAL THE WORLD, with the keyword---plowshare.

There is a word called Controversial, and this one must be in his dictionary.

He is crying out World Peace, but certainly with a dictator mind. Use a word I learnt from ancient Roman rulers, "deify", after every victorious fight. I can just see the depiction of it, in the scene with the army, the enormous statue, and the people cheering and fainting. Well, this man sure loves himself.

He is singing Black and White, but turning himself from black to white?! I don't get it, doesn't color matter? Maybe that's because I haven't dug into it, for the "whole story". But I guess that's how the press works these days, they don't give you the "whole story", bad side up as always. After all, what do I care, I am yellow anyway.

He is the man with a loving heart, for the poor or the weak. A man with Ray-Ban, living in a castle, giving police the finger can really save. Just despite others like Guevara, Lincoln or Martin Luther King. Shooting a MV in Rio de Janeiro at least brought the problem into the public eyes. He is an entertainer, not a revolutionary. What else he can do, apart from singing? (Of course, and abusing.)

He declared he loves children, their wisdom is the key to many problems that we encounter now. He has been put in front of everybody since the age of 5, so for the stolen childhood, he would like to live it through other kids. "Scream", it may really be a mistake. He is too great to be left alone. I understand why "Legal and Ethical Issue in the Media" is compulsory course for us. Sometimes, we should see all to have an opinion. That's the same thing for Tibet too I guess.

He is an amazing performer, if I knew him earlier, maybe I would also fall for him. For his charm, or more precisely, should I say beauty. He is a weirdo. However, you have to be crazy to be unique. That runs in his blood, that's his instinct.

He is the man that has been talked about with good and evil. With misunderstanding, and always loving and hating. But does it apply to us all? We can't gain favor from each individual, so he is brave to be simply a person, a man with flaws. Same as the drink, mixture of different tastes, turn into the one and only flavor of all.

It must be a tiring 50-year for him, so may him rest in peace now.